“From the Desk of Eartha-Ntozake:
Interesting how that works for a woman—brown-braided and radical
like myself. I can be as fragile as flower
and as submissive as a servant. And yet, it’s always been the ones that said
they want a woman
who has something to offer the world
that leave me abandoned.
So they’ll never get to see me
crumbling from the inside out, tear-stained cheek bones, low and regular as they get sometimes.
Their desire to witness that Tyra never outweighs their contempt
for my need to be a free-thinking woman, radically fragile and totally emotionally attached like I get sometimes.”
I wrote this on a whim.
After a long day.
Reflecting on my friendships
and past relationships.
Always been intrigued by
the dualities people have
to (by need or want)
pack into their daily lives.
Always considered the
effort it must take to
unpack those complexities
and in front of another person
at that. Can you imagine being
completely and complexly vulnerable
in front of person? I’m aghast
just thinking about it.
What if it’s thrown back in my face?
What if it warrants a lover to surrender his love to me?!
Ready to find out?
Think I could.
Asked for discernment to choose
the right man as options seem scarce
and plentiful all at once. At once, it was meantful… I mean mindful
to want to be the fun,
yet single, holdin’ it down ass mom.
Bet. Been there, done that one.
Found that was unfavorable
or at least that ONE was unfavored
by God Himself.
He crept into my heart
when I had everything and
carried each piece of me away
like a raccoon
rummaging through a dumpster. No wonder, my ravishingly simple personality
is driven by a slight disenchantment of love. I’m Eartha-Ntozake. I am nonchalant
about it all. All the while knowing,
I have been idolized in past and current lives by men who would remain temporary.
is it that I am continent’s worth
of Queen’s pride
and nonetheless romantically deprived because it is so?”
(Note: It needs cleaning up, but my hand started cramping. And I’m actually not too sensitive about my work, so you can leave comments or suggestions. I’ll either use it or not. Just don’t steal it or not credit me puh-lease.)
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